A new month brings a new monthly montage. :)
My brother recently remarked that he likes this series because he feels like the videos are representative of my life. Which, of course, made me laugh because how would he know? We don't even live in the same city! We do talk candidly on the phone, at least every week or so, but he's not LIVING my life. He added that based on what I share with him, these snippets feel like a fair sample of my days.
And in truth, I agree with him. Plus, I'm glad that from his perspective I'm living genuinely. I'm glad that outside perceptions are ringing true to my inner goals. Truthfully though, no one knows my life like I do and although I'm sharing online, I'm not doing this for others. The most important take away from this practice is, 1- it's helping me stay mindful and, 2- it's serving as a memory keeping tool for myself/my family.
And that leads me to this most recent month where, a couple weeks in, I realized that I hadn't taken video for 6 out of 10 days. Which is truly representative of how I was feeling. (I managed to spread out footage from one event over multiple days to fill in the gaps. No harm no foul.) Overall, I've found that when life is going well, it's tricky to document because I'm having such a great time that I forget! And when life isn't going so well, I stop documenting because I'd rather forget. I don't want to live in that yucky feeling space, not in the moment, and certainly not in a month, or year from now, while watching these videos back. (I'm working on sitting with feelings instead of labeling them good or bad. Easier said than done.)
Early in July, I was more tired than usual, but I made an effort to show myself Grace and rest, and you'll see that in the clips. Then, a week later I got sick and was down for the count. Of course, when you're spending your days and nights curled up in a tangle of blankets on the bathroom floor, you rarely think I gotta grab my phone to take a one second video to document this moment.
However, there were bright spots that I do want to remember, like Jason coming home early to take care of me, and the many times that he brought me refills of water and saltines. Any and everything I could need, he was there for. He was speaking my love language and those are the moments of joy, in the middle of the mess that are worth documenting.
This month I celebrated the 4th of July all weekend with a Rivercats game, trip to Gunthers Ice Cream Shop with my family, a bunch of pool time, plus fireworks at Becca's house where Lili sang "Proud to be an American" while dancing with a mini USA flag. I took hot evening walks, and worked on a bachelorette party craft for Anne. I watched Big Brother live feeds while Jason was in Las Vegas for Summer League and walked familiar midtown streets. I spent many afternoons in bed, plus some nights out with Jason to celebrate 7 years as a couple. There was a healthy tomato harvest on an empty patio (the HOA was painting all the buildings, so I had to move everything). One day, I picked up Jason at BART after he went to a conference in the city. I watched Scooter the cat, and then there were multiple days in bed nursing a stomach bug. My succulent propagation continued at a rapid pace. I was so excited to get photos back from my shoot with Ashlee Gadd- more on that soon. I loved watching the the DNC and Hillary's acceptance speech. Can't forget time with Prince the kitty-MEOW! Lastly, I celebrated my BFF's graduation in the Bay, and drove back to Sac with Jason in tow.
August will be a busy one, with travel to Michigan, Boston, and Austin. It'll be fun to see the vacation captured in this way.